Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card ch 11-15

As this book approaches to the final stages, Ender showed heavy mood throughout the section. Since his talent was approved, he has been fighting and fighting over and over. In his mind, he doesn’t want to kill any lives, but his violence wouldn’t stop coming out when he is in the battle. He gets more and more depressed. Same day, same violent battles tired him physically and mentally. He was finally ordered to fight in the battle with the buggers. Of course he defeated the queen again with his inner tendency to battle violently. Then, he immediately felt bad for them because he was the only one that cared about the enemies’ lives in the middle of a battle. He felt lonely that no one else felt the same way. Tired of killing other lives without intentional purposes, he decided to go to the bugger world and learn their cultures in return of their queen’s death. While interacting with them in their culture, Ender decided to start their new civilization after the battle destroyed it. The author ends the story here. 

After closing this book, Ender pops out in my mind as a representative figure of a victim of the society. The society sets your life a certain way even if that’s not what you really wanted, just like Ender. Then, people gradually or forcefully blend into that set life formed by the society and stress over the issues regarding their uncertain future. At the end, Ender jumps to what he really wanted to do after having to fight with individual lives that he doesn’t want to harm at all. Although his next journey will be in commander school, he didn’t seem to lose faith in him.